December 21, 2012

• Big Update

  

  I’m not saying every day is going to be worth waking up in the morning for, it’s not always going to be perfect, but you have to move on, you have to get up, or you’ll never stumble upon the days that really, truly are worth waking up for.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  That’s the way the world goes round. One minute you’re up and the next you’re down.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  I have within me all the dreams of the world.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  I look back and I’m far from the girl I used to be, I don’t care what anyone says, I going to take pride in that.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  I want to think again of dangerous and noble things. I want to be light and frolicsome. I want to be improbable, beautiful, and afraid of nothing. As though I had wings.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  You make me laugh at things that aren’t funny. You make me smile without actually being here. You make my stomach flip by a text. You make my heart drop by just saying hi. I hate to admit it, but you’re still amazing.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  Dear Eminem, Not only do we have the same name, but we’re both black on the inside too. Sincerely, M&Ms.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  Eat the damn cookie, girl. You deserve it.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  Your teenage years should be all about having fun. Before you know it, you’re off to college and you have to grow the fuck up. You can’t rely on your parents for everything. You’re forced to deal with your shit on your own. You’ve gotta buck up, graduate, go out into that so called ‘real world’ that everybody congratulates you on joining, and find a legitimate career. Bottom line: it’s gonna suck. Big time. So for now, don’t let it cross your mind for a second. Just have a bad ass, mother fucking time, and don’t you even consider regretting it.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  I’ve learned to take a step back and stop trying to understand all the why’s and how come’s that go along with this world and this life. I’ve learned that sometimes you just have to say fuck it and just live.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  I’ve tried to hate you, blame you for all of this, but no matter what I do, in the end I know that I’ve brought all this hurt upon myself.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  I think that one of the hardest lessons there is to learn is that even after someone puts you down, you have to learn to wake up the next morning with your head held high.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  I swear I didn’t mean to fall for you.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  Admit your mistakes before someone exaggerates the story.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  Maybe it’s when I allow everything to fall apart, I realize who cares and who doesn’t.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  Just tell me you feel the same. That we’re falling apart. Then tell me, go on and tell me that you don’t want to lose me. Because I don’t want to lose you. We’re so far from each other and all I want is to be within your reach again. I want what we don’t have anymore. I still want you.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you. Waiting for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart. For everything to hurt so bad you just want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  • 5:45 pm
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