December 11, 2012

• Shoulda put a ring on it

  

  I will always look at the world, and the people inside of it with equality. I will face each day as if it will be the last day I have alive. I will do my best to face each day with a smile on my face. I will never look further than tomorrow, and never look past yesterday. I will never look at something with regret, but look at it as a lesson. I won’t ever have to let go of the memories in the back of my head, but I will have to let go of the people who were there during those times, and when the time comes to do so, I will do so without regret. I will acknowledge those few people who have inspired me, and say goodbye to the people who have caused me pain. I will welcome tomorrow with open arms, no matter how low I feel today. I will be ready to let go of yesterday when tomorrow comes, so when I look back upon today in the future I will be proud of what I did. I will take small steps to change the world, to inspire, to help all I can. I will never regret the steps I have taken to become who I am. I will never hate what I’ve been given, I will never deny who I am, and I will never lie to make someone happy. I will hold myself together in an event of pain, or sadness. I will be happy with whatever hands I get dealt, and won’t take the day for granted.

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  Maybe it’s not about the happy ending, maybe it’s about the story.

  

  

  

  

  

  

  People should be able to love whoever the fuck they wanna love and no matter what you believe, you should be allowed to live your life the way you wanna live it.

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  I’m not the sweetest girl out there. I’m rude, inconsiderate and ignorant. I’m misunderstood most of the time and I don’t apprieciate it when others claim they know me. I’m blunt and brutally honest. I’ll tell you how I feel, no working my way around it. But just because I may act that way doesn’t mean I don’t feel certain things. I do get that gut feeling in the pit of my stomach when I see someone less fortunate. I do take things for granted. But that doesn’t mean in the bottom of my heart I don’t apprieciate them. 

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  I miss knowing you were always there. I miss the security. I miss the stupid fights that either made us shut up until next time or somehow made us stronger. I miss holding your hand. I miss you holding back. I miss you not holding back. I miss your scruff and always being amazed that I walked away without severe beard-burn. I miss those nights when we didn’t want to stop being with each other. I miss getting so pissed at something you would say or do and trying to deal with it on my own until you made me fess up. I miss surprising you. I miss being surprised by the glimpses of your humanity every now and then. I miss the look you’d get when i’d touch your cheek. I miss how you thought you were so stealth with your mood changes when you really can’t hide them from me. I miss how i always knew where I stood. I think I miss your hugs the most. didn’t need them often, but now when I do, it sucks to know you’re not around to give them.

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  I don’t feel loved. I go through each day and I don’t think anybody loves me. And I know it’s pathetic, but it’s the way I feel, and I’m too young to feel this way.

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  You can’t wait around for things to happen for you. You have to have power in your life. So if you don’t speak up for yourself and speak your mind, no one else will do it for you- and how else are you going to get what you want?

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  You meant the world to me, even if I didn’t mean the world to you. You taught me so much, and I just want you to know – I appreciate everything you’ve done for me in the past years. You gave me something to be happy about. You gave me the meaning of what it’s like to know that someone actually cares. You’re truly an amazing person and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. I know things aren’t easy between us right now, but I hope someday soon, we can go back to how we used to be. But no matter what – don’t forget that I am always here for you when you need someone, regardless of what the situation is. You were there for me, so I’m going to be there for you. This isn’t goodbye forever, it’s goodbye for now.

  

  

  

  

  

  

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