December 18, 2012

• One more night

  

  I love that feeling. You know, the one you get when you take a deep breath and suddenly everything feels like it’s going to be okay. When you’re hopeless as can be, and life is going nowhere, there’s those moments we have every now and then where we just stop, and we get this feeling, that can’t be described, but you just.. You just feel like everything really is going to be okay. Like the world stopped spinning for a second, and everything was clear. I need more of those moments.

  

  

  

  

  

  

  I don’t know where I’m going. I don’t know what’s going to happen. I can’t tell the future, I can’t make any promises. There’s nothing I can guarantee. Things will change, something’s gonna happen. But whatever happens, even if it hurts, it’s for the best.

  

  

  

  

  

  

  God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

  

  

  

  

  

  

  If I could forget everything, I can honestly say I would. I can’t imagine how peaceful it would be to able to pass you on the street and have no idea who you are.

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  You know what? I’m not anybody’s last resort. I’m somebody’s first priority.

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  Learn from your past, move on, grow stronger. people are fake, but let your trust last longer. Do what you gotta do, but always stay true. And never let anyone get the best of you.

  

  

  

  

  

  

  I need someone to prove to me that I’m worth it, really worth it to them. Maybe all I need is a person who can show me I can be the person who can show me that everyone is not the same. Honestly, I thought you were that person, but I was wrong. Is it too much to ask for someone to take a risk on me, to fight for me, to actually care enough to not let something go; the way I did for you? You never even thanked me. I acted the way I did because I cared. I didn’t realize it then, but I do now. I don’t do that just for anyone. So, call me crazy, but today.. today I realized I can’t keep waiting for you. i’m moving on. I can’t stay in one place waiting. I can’t be around you anymore. I’m not over it, I don’t get over things fast, I never have, no matter how much I try and convince myself. I”ll see you around sometime. I keep thinking maybe somehow,  something will click and everything will go back to the way it was in the beginning. Maybe we could go back to that, but too much has been said and done. So, maybe you’ll get one more chance, and maybe you won’t.

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  I’ve learned to keep my composure, to play it cool when really it’s killing me inside. I’ve learned to let it go, to let you go. Yet I still care and honestly, it sucks. I want to be out there, gone and away from you. I want to forget about you. I want to move on, but I can’t, and I don’t know why.

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  Sometimes there is no next time, no time-outs, no second chances; sometimes it’s now or never.

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  Don’t do anything half-ass. If you love someone, love them with all your heart. If you hate someone, hate them until it hurts.

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

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