December 26, 2012

• Give life meaning

  

  Wait long enough to always mean what you say. Speak quick enough to always say what you think. Think long enough to understand what you feel.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  Although it is such a singular word, there are many variations of alone. There  is the alone of an empty bench at twilight, there is the alone of an empty  hotel room, there is the alone of being caught in a throng of people, there is the alone of missing a particular person, and there is the alone of being with a particular person and realizing you are still alone.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  So maybe I’m not okay. Maybe I still would do anything to get you back. But there isn’t anything for me to do is there? Your mind is set, and I’m not what you want anymore. Maybe I wish things were different. But maybe I realized that that’s how things ended, and they ended that way for a reason.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  It’s not up to you, your heart just kind of decides, and there’s no turning back once your heart makes up it’s mind.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  Letting go basically means you’re accepting. You’re accepting that some things or some people will never change. You’re accepting that you’ve done as much as you can do. You’re accepting that sometimes there’s nothing left to fight for. You’re accepting it for what it is. I mean, who wants to believe that after they’ve given their 110%, in the end it was a wasted effort? Things change.  People change. That’s life. All you can do is move on and learn from it. You  can’t keep dwelling on what could’ve been or what could be because where does that get you? There’s only so much you can do until you realize that after making a huge effort, you get nothing in return.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  Somehow, you always end up running through my head, don’t ask me why. After all the lies I don’t even know why I still care, but somehow I just can’t let go. Maybe it’s the thought of you coming back on day, but you better have a clue and realize I have feelings too. It’s not always just about you.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  Sometimes when you’re young, you think nothing can hurt you. It’s like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you, and you have big plans. Big plans to find your perfect match, the one that completes you. But as you get older, you realize it’s not always that easy. It’s not until the end of your life that you realize how the plans you made were simply plans. At the end, when you’re looking back instead of forward, you want to believe that you made the most of what life gave you. You want to believe that you’re leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  You have the right to leave someone, but at least tell them why, cause  what’s even more painful than being abandoned is knowing you’re not worth an explanation.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  Some things will always be the same. Cinemas will always have popcorn, cars will always have their music playing too loud, your eyes will always be that deep chocolate, the morning after will always be rubbish compared to the night  before, homework will always be left until the last minute, excuses will be made up on the spot and then backed up by whoever happens to be the nearest person, you will always be on my mind, teenagers will always relate all of  their life to song lyrics, life will always go on, and you will always be my first and only love.

  
  
  
  
  
  

  There’s always going to be bad stuff out there but here’s the thing, light trumps darkness, every time. You can stick a candle into the dark, but you can’t stick the dark into the light.

  
  
  
  
  
  

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